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Post-Sinibash: I was very drunk. I drank over 4 bottles of alcohol, 2 bottles of Corona & 2 bottles of Mike’s Hard Lemonade. When I arrived, I rode my bike over to AJs house as a way to get there quicker, but then I soon realized in my drunken state that I would probably be riding my bike home DRUNK. So, I decided to stay for a while, I had soe burgers to keep me steady, drank some qwater, and I successfully rodev my bike home while drunk. Tbh, i feel like I kinda rode my bike better while drunk but maybe that’s just me.

It’s now the next morning, I feel pretty awake and alert which is suprising since i always feel really sluggish and tired in the mornings. Sure my stomach is bugging me a little, it’s not enough to make myself want to vomit. I’m sure it’ll go away with time. I’ll probably stop by AJs house and convert all of the Sinibash footage there with him.

Sinibash was today and it was fucking awesome. i drank, I moshed, I ate, and I hung out with everyone all at the same time. Before the concert even started, AJs glass table broke thanks to the combo of an unstable umbrella and the fucking wind.

We wanted to help AJ out since it was his 20th birthday after but he insisted he could do it himself, which he did. His mother was fine with it to me didn’t seem to worried about it.

I have seen the band practice these songs numerous times and just to hear them do it in person fully fleshed out is surreal. 25+ people came to see the band and I filmed almost everything. It was so cool seeing all of the people show up and even people we didn’t even know show up. Me and the lead singer AJ plan to perform with our OWN band once we get our footing. Here are some of the photos I took at Sinibash 2024.

Sorry for not posting for a good couple of months, ive been busy with school and college stuff. I will prboably post some cool stuff soon once I am in college.

Sorry for not posting for a good couple of months, ive been busy with school and college stuff. I will prboably post some cool stuff soon once I am in college.

welp, today i have to go to a FAFSA workshop with BOTH of my parents, perfect timing especially when i literally had a breakdown about my dad LITERALLY last night. its been in my head for most of the day and im kinda nervous but then i realized, this is a professional event, where he has to be calm cool and understanding. he would NEVER get mad or angry if he is infront of not only me & my mom, but a school official. so i dont think im too worried anymore but there is still a possibility that something might happen, i just hope nothing bad happens while we get there. the school hasnt told usabout where this is located. this is already stressful enough and them not telling us where the ocation of the event is just adds salt to the wound of my nervousness. im gonna go ask someone in a lil bit about this and ill let you all know tomorrow how it went. 

welp, today i have to go to a FAFSA workshop with BOTH of my parents, perfect timing especially when i literally had a breakdown about my dad LITERALLY last night. its been in my head for most of the day and im kinda nervous but then i realized, this is a professional event, where he has to be calm cool and understanding. he would NEVER get mad or angry if he is infront of not only me & my mom, but a school official. so i dont think im too worried anymore but there is still a possibility that something might happen, i just hope nothing bad happens while we get there. the school hasnt told usabout where this is located. this is already stressful enough and them not telling us where the ocation of the event is just adds salt to the wound of my nervousness. im gonna go ask someone in a lil bit about this and ill let you all know tomorrow how it went. 

i cried today, really really agressively. my dad called me at around 4:30 by accident i assume because when i answered, he yelled out in anger. when i asked what was wrong, he hung up without saying a word. i kept thinking about how he was feeling, all of the bad memories, the outbursts, and all of my emotions frm the past couple of months that i had bottled up all came out. it was a big and loud cry into my pillow but it was very short, lasting around 2 or 3 minutes or so, but damn did it feel good. letting it all out was something i really needed. my dads outbursts and emotions always get to me for some reason, i dont know why it does but it always happens. i dont know why but i really wanna figure out why i get like this, what kind of trauma did my dad put me through where i cry uncontrollably when things get like this? why cant he just get better? why is it taking so long for things to get better? will they ever get better? not sure, imma go eat now 

i cried today, really really agressively. my dad called me at around 4:30 by accident i assume because when i answered, he yelled out in anger. when i asked what was wrong, he hung up without saying a word. i kept thinking about how he was feeling, all of the bad memories, the outbursts, and all of my emotions frm the past couple of months that i had bottled up all came out. it was a big and loud cry into my pillow but it was very short, lasting around 2 or 3 minutes or so, but damn did it feel good. letting it all out was something i really needed. my dads outbursts and emotions always get to me for some reason, i dont know why it does but it always happens. i dont know why but i really wanna figure out why i get like this, what kind of trauma did my dad put me through where i cry uncontrollably when things get like this? why cant he just get better? why is it taking so long for things to get better? will they ever get better? not sure, imma go eat now