hey! sorry for not posting alot again, micro.blog said that I didnt pay for some reason, even thought i did???? but whatever, i am currently chillling!!!! it looks like it’s gonna be a really nice day out, and I’m excited to hang out with my friends today, imma ask my friend Tiff if she wants to go outside and imma got deposit money into my bank account later today so that i can go buy a new charger for my camera :D life is good! go outside! enjoy the beautiful new york weather! happy spring!!!!

Post-Sinibash: I was very drunk. I drank over 4 bottles of alcohol, 2 bottles of Corona & 2 bottles of Mike’s Hard Lemonade. When I arrived, I rode my bike over to AJs house as a way to get there quicker, but then I soon realized in my drunken state that I would probably be riding my bike home DRUNK. So, I decided to stay for a while, I had soe burgers to keep me steady, drank some qwater, and I successfully rodev my bike home while drunk. Tbh, i feel like I kinda rode my bike better while drunk but maybe that’s just me.

It’s now the next morning, I feel pretty awake and alert which is suprising since i always feel really sluggish and tired in the mornings. Sure my stomach is bugging me a little, it’s not enough to make myself want to vomit. I’m sure it’ll go away with time. I’ll probably stop by AJs house and convert all of the Sinibash footage there with him.

Sinibash was today and it was fucking awesome. i drank, I moshed, I ate, and I hung out with everyone all at the same time. Before the concert even started, AJs glass table broke thanks to the combo of an unstable umbrella and the fucking wind.

We wanted to help AJ out since it was his 20th birthday after but he insisted he could do it himself, which he did. His mother was fine with it to me didn’t seem to worried about it.

I have seen the band practice these songs numerous times and just to hear them do it in person fully fleshed out is surreal. 25+ people came to see the band and I filmed almost everything. It was so cool seeing all of the people show up and even people we didn’t even know show up. Me and the lead singer AJ plan to perform with our OWN band once we get our footing. Here are some of the photos I took at Sinibash 2024.

Sorry for not posting for a good couple of months, ive been busy with school and college stuff. I will prboably post some cool stuff soon once I am in college.

so today, one of our filming partners didnt show up due to the fact they were obviously unprepared but pretending that she had dysmenorrhea. (she literally searched up the scientific definition of period cramps) so from now on guys, lets normalize telling the truth, because this is literally so stupid especially when she literally BEGGED and PLEADED to go first. oh well, we lowkey did better without her anyway. but TRUST, i will be calling her out tomorrow.

also quick update on the fafsa thing

it went great

oh also happy black history month :D

welp, today i have to go to a FAFSA workshop with BOTH of my parents, perfect timing especially when i literally had a breakdown about my dad LITERALLY last night. its been in my head for most of the day and im kinda nervous but then i realized, this is a professional event, where he has to be calm cool and understanding. he would NEVER get mad or angry if he is infront of not only me & my mom, but a school official. so i dont think im too worried anymore but there is still a possibility that something might happen, i just hope nothing bad happens while we get there. the school hasnt told usabout where this is located. this is already stressful enough and them not telling us where the ocation of the event is just adds salt to the wound of my nervousness. im gonna go ask someone in a lil bit about this and ill let you all know tomorrow how it went. 

i cried today, really really agressively. my dad called me at around 4:30 by accident i assume because when i answered, he yelled out in anger. when i asked what was wrong, he hung up without saying a word. i kept thinking about how he was feeling, all of the bad memories, the outbursts, and all of my emotions frm the past couple of months that i had bottled up all came out. it was a big and loud cry into my pillow but it was very short, lasting around 2 or 3 minutes or so, but damn did it feel good. letting it all out was something i really needed. my dads outbursts and emotions always get to me for some reason, i dont know why it does but it always happens. i dont know why but i really wanna figure out why i get like this, what kind of trauma did my dad put me through where i cry uncontrollably when things get like this? why cant he just get better? why is it taking so long for things to get better? will they ever get better? not sure, imma go eat now 

today is the day where i finally get to hang out with emilie after a good 2 weeks! i feel so excited to FINALLY see her. the reason why she hasnt been able to hang out with me is because her mom thinks she’s hanging out with me too much and that she wants her to “hang out with new people” but whenever she wants to her mom is like, “i dont know them so no” but anyways, me and emiie had so much fun together! We went to a mexcian restaurant, we went to a boba place, we even went to the library just to sit for a bit. We really just enjoyed eachothers time together tbh, tomorrow, hopefully me and emilie will be able to hang out again tomorrow and alot more.

here are some photos of us together:

today i have came up with a revelation, i will be distancing myself away from my dad. now of course due to how unstabe he is at the moment, it wont be an immediate thing, ill do it gradually. i am tired of his constant phone calls, mood swings, and overall bad eneergy that stresses me out beyond compare. i just feel very annoyed and upset by the fact that i always have to hear about how he’s “lonely” or he's “gonna go broke” when he literally gets paid by the government $8,000 PER MONTH. but im done, im tired of hearing how miserable his life is when he chooses to make his life miserable by not taking the action and doing what is best for his mental health and well-being because frankly, it is NONE OF MY BUSINESS, and it shouldnt have have been my business from the very BEGINNING. 

besides that though, i am very excited for tomorrow! me and emilie are gonna go hang out after school and im so happy to see her after what seems like ages. i honestly dont know why, but ever since me and emilie met, we have had this inseparable bond. we always hang out together, always get food together, always do everything together, so much so that people think that we are dating! i just find it funny that me and emilie have had a closer friendship than most childhood friends have. ill let you guys know tomorrow how it goes and i have a big announcement for you all that i think you guys will love. see yall tomorrow

today was a kind of nerve racking day. my dad (who we kicked out of our house) came over to get some psychiatrist papers and had a mini argument on the phone with her. i dont think my dad’s meds arent working. and it worries me because if he doesnt take his meds or if they dont work, he wont get anything done. it’s not fair whatsoever and i just want him to get better. but anyways, i went to the farmers market and i got vanilla cinnamon swirl cookies & blueberry pie, (WHICH WAS SOOOO FUCKING GOOD BY THE WAY) i went to the record store and got some cool records then soon went home and sorta hung out all day.

today was amazing! i used uber like twice i one day, hung out with my friend Elijah, went to bk, wento the lbrary, and i overall had a fun time! we hung out for a bit in the library’s teen room but these two boys were causing a ruckus, even at one point standing on tables knowing DAMN WELL there were security cameras in the vicinity of the area. so shameful..

welp, back to doing nothing all day. i think i might go out for a walk later today or something, maybe ill go get coffee at that new coffee shop down the street or maybe start looking for  job around my house. i really need to get a job, how else am i gonna be bale ot keep this site up without money? plus, getting a job can also give me not ony some experience and money, but some good stories to tell on here. tbh i feel like i should start going outside more often just ofr the stories, because everytime i go outside theres a story to be told, and im not saying that in a "deep artistic 14 year old" way, im saying that in like a "this has happened to me before” way. Ill let yall know how today goes but tomorrow, i will be hanging out with friends :)

today might one of the most interesting days, but not in the way you'd except. I went to the orthodontist today and I was waiting in the waiting room for a good 30 ish minutes. I usually dont really like going to the orthodontist and honestly find it really annoying to take time out of my day to go there. it’s panful, annoying and half of the time we wait so long that we end up just leaving and going home. Nonetheless, i did my appointment and the lady that was doing my braces had a lil bit of a snarky attitude. like she didn’t really make any jokes and was kinda deadpan. she kept like messing up and doing a HORRID job tryna tie the colors together and i ended up being a hot and sweaty mess by the time i left. i do gotta say that i love the way they turned out and i am super close to being done with these fucking things, i just hpe i will be done with them before college starts.

today was a pretty boring day, probably gonna be the most boring week if my plans end up not going as expected. due to the fact that i have no regents tests during regents week in nyc, i have all week to do whatever i want. my friend emilie still hasnt asked her parents and i keep making plans just for her to ask at the last minute which in turn, makes her mom say no. i’m ot sure who i could hang out with or make plans with atm, but im definitely gonna try. today all i really did was sit on my couch and go on my computer, looking at micro.blog, mastodon, discord, etc. ive been looking at some cool jvc everio cameras that im gonna use to make some cool videos for you all, so atleast im getting something productive. for the rest of the night, i’m probably going to eat some five guys my mom is bringing home and then go ask my friends if they are available this week. if things don’t go as planned for tomorrow, i will be heading to the bank to put in some money that some family gifted to me. hopefully this week wpnt be as boring as today was.

okay so im really tred, woke up this morning and went back to sleep within like 5 secs but got up and made myself some coffee. i went to school and had a talk with this nice person setting up props and costumes. today i have to go to the bank and deposit some money then tomorrow im gonna try to make plans with the friends and me!

sorry for not posting, here is a photo of something random to make up for it :)

back when i was working for WVOX back in 2023, i would wake up at 5:30 am, drive myself to the station, and engineer the board for, Good Morning Westchester. the two host were some of the best show hosts i have ever seen in the county. they were fun, chipper, and amazing. did it until it shut down.

okay, how do i make friends here? i see everyone talking to each other on here but i rlly dont know where to start

working on my mastadon account config lol

my friend sky wanted me to film her singing via my webcam mic so enjoy

today was kinda fun, i made my self my first ever mocha coffee, it was really cold today though, a good 26 degrees out here in nyc but it was fine since i had a ton of layers on. i saw a couple of my friends today and i found out that the marking period is going to end on the 22nd. i feel very weird today though, i woke up at 4am out of nowhere with a weird feeling in my throat then al of a sudden, i coughed up a BUNCH of phlegm. it was fucking nasty so i took a cold pill and mucinex pill and i felt better soon later in the morning. i honstly used to love being sick because usually that would make me go to school less, but now as a enior in highschool, missing a day of school is something that I dread the most. if i miss a single day of school, i will be behid on my assignments, what we learned, and ill never have time to make it up becuase they move on to thenext assignment so fast and i get left out in the dark. so yeah, its not the best to be home when i need to be on top of my game for school. well thanks for reading, imma go have some water

forgot to post this yesterday 

i feel very bored, i ordered taco bell via doordash but the dasher didn’t speak english so i had to translate spanish and go out in 26 degree weather and looked around for his car and FINALLYB go my food. there was a fire drill today and i wanted to cry becuase it was from people smoking at like 7:30 am in the morning, like why tf are you smoking THAT EARLY???? anyhow, i made some cool mini pots, had some delicious food and took cool photos  of me with lipgloss. tomorrow im planning on making music with a friend and have some fun.

this morning went off to a shitty start, i had to leave the house early to scrape the ice off of my moms car and my fingers are hurting like a bitch, it is getting to hard to type on this damn macbook, but hopefully if i do alot on this, itll heat up and i can warm my hands easily. But im so fucking tired omg, i have alot to do today and or this week thanks to this snow day, i am a little behind and i have to stay on my a-game today. i feel super tired though, i guess one cup of coffee wasnt good enough for today. i really hope i don’t have a B day, because if i do and i have to see my health teacher, i will go insane.  (update it’s a fucking A DAY HALLEUJAH) anyways, ill update you guys how i am feeling later today and how my day went as a whole. hope you have a good day :) 

here’s a lil photo of me when i was a junior:
 

Here are some old photos from 2014-2015

I love Japanese food

Okay, not sure what to put here but hi! my name is zeke and i am currently 18 years old, i am in my senior year of high school, i make videos music, etc, and i love the internet. I’ve been fascinated from a very young age, it felt new, expressive and overall fun until one day when it stopped being fun. everything became commericalized and boring and i ended up just using the same 5 social networks for years.. and years… and years. but stumbling upon micro.blog made me find something I was seaching for so long! Finally i have a place where i can epress myself on my own platform. hopefully this blog will become just as big as any other and i hope you all will enjoy my story.